We all have those days we spend thinking of the "What If'", the "I wonder", right? Can't be just me. I do it from time to time. Don't get me wrong, I don't have any regrets. Well, maybe one, but nothing I wouldn't jeopardize the outcome I have in life thus far (not that it's a fantastic one but still).
I wish there was some sort of time machine or better yet an angel that comes down to show you how life would have turned out had you made a different choice. Why is it that only happens on TV Shows? So not fair. You see, I'd like to see how thing might have turned out if I made a different choice, but not really change what I did for real. I guess I'd like to see how some choices turn out because some of them were life changing indeed. For real. Come on, you know damn well if you had the option of seeing how things could have went (depending on what is was) you'd be curious.
For me, it's things like if my childhood girlfriend and I never got that abortion. How would that have turned out? Me with a kid? Wow, scary. What if I stayed at the Council on Foreign Relations instead of leaving? Well, I'm not sure anything different would have happened except I'd still be tired of it. Oh, what if the deal that got me the job at Macklowe Properties was a success and they didn't have to lay off pretty much all of us. Wow, that would have been something. I got to know so many people there. To tell you the truth, I don't think I have ever gotten over being laid off from there. Real Talk.
As you can see, with the exception of one major one, my "I Wonder" list isn't all that dramatic to see how it would have went had I chose differently. I think for the most part I would have still ended up right here were I'm at today. Is that a bad thing? Who's to say. Only one would have had a drastic impact on my life and that was if I actually had a kid. That's the one I'll always think about. Truth be told, to this day I think I was more in love with that girl than she was with me. But that's for another blog and another time.
So, am I the only one that has these type of thoughts??? Naaaaa, I know I can't be. Feel free to leave a thought of yours on the comments if you'd like. If you've gotten this far it's much appreciated as I'm just writing what's on the mind.
Thanks for reading.
Be back with another real soon...
DV
